Big Sigh

So much for all being well with the world. My dad had his doctor's appointment yesterday and the results of that visit weren't all that we wanted them to be. All is NOT well.

He's got Cardio Myopathy, and if there's someone that can better explain what that is, I'd be truly happy. I know it has to do with how well the heart is pumping. He has low blood pressure so the meds that they usually prescribe would lower it even more, so his doctor is sending him to a specialist "today" because she was at her wits end at what to give him to get this under control.

All of this makes me feel numb. I'm used to things being wrong with my mother, not my father. He's the older of the two, as well. Which means we really should have been expecting something to come along.

But who wants to think about that? I don't see my father as an 81 year old man, at least I didn't until yesterday. Now I do. Now I've got 2 parents to really worry about.

I went apeshit when the nurses in ER called him an "elderly" gentlemen. I don't like the word elderly much, I think I've mentioned that. (Even if its true)

Now I have to come to grips with reality, a reality that I really don't want to get a grip on.

Please keep my dad in your thoughts and prayers.