Ashes To Ashes Rocked My World

In the course of the last 3 years, I discovered a wonderful sci-fi cop show from the UK, called Ashes To Ashes. Its the sequel to Life On Mars, which I liked, but as I mention to a friend yesterday, I like Ashes better. Why? All the characters seemed to connect better with me.

Yesterday, I watched the final episode, and oh how I cried. It was a fitting and well written end to a show that has been stellar from start to finish.

Allow me to share a dream sequence from this past series.



Yes, Gene Hunt could be my downtown man. I'm only sad that Alex and Gene didn't get to shag each other senseless. (Yes, I have a huge crush on Philip Glenister, see my hump day post for further proof)

What the hell am I going to do without this show!!!!

I flipping watched Demons because Glenister was in it. (And that show was terrible)

Holiday Cleaning

It seems like every holiday that rolls by finds me cleaning some part of the house. This time round, I'm trying to organize my dad's closet.

Oye.

That man has t-shirts that look like they've gone to church more than Mother Theresa.

I'm trying to go through his things and dispose of the shirts that he hasn't worn in 20 years, and get rid of the shirts he's been wearing for 20 years and are falling apart.

You would think that this man had no clothes!

Anytime someone's gone on vacation, he gets a new t-shirt. Father's Day is for polo shirts and jeans!

There are so many things he hasn't worn that still have the damn tags on them. Its frustrating.

What's worse is my nephew is the same way, which makes for twice the mess.

Triple B Farm

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I'm so glad that its berry season and Triple B Farm is open again. I took dad out so he could see the world today, and we picked up the strawberry rhubarb pie mom ordered yesterday. (Mmmm Mmmm tasty)

I picked up a strawberry breakfast bread as well as some fresh strawberries and strawberry butter. There are lots of goodies at the farm market.

After I dropped my packages off with dad, I went to look at the baby goats, cos I'm a sucker for baby animals.

It was a nice afternoon out, which was needed. I can't wait til the weekend of the 12th when Triple B has their berry festival. Can you say, "Mmm strawberry pancakes!"

Top 5 On Friday

Top 5 Songs That Put A Little Love In Your Heart
(interpret as you see fit, and tell us about your picks)


You guys know the drill. Play along in the comments or in your journal. This meme is created for my site Music Memoirs. Feel free to go there and check out my other weekly memes and play along.

1. The Monkees - French Song: This is a Davy song from the Presents album. Its really beautiful and charming and it makes me all gooshy inside. The lyrics have a wonderful visual appeal.

2. Justin Hayward - Sometimes Less Is More: You could actually put any Hayward song here, but this particular one about not jumping into love head over feet is stunning. Plus the man has a voice of an angel.

3. Michael Crawford - The Music Of The Night: Its the Phantom, nuff said, right?

4. The Beatles - Here, There & Everywhere: Paulie is the master of the "Silly Love Song."

5. George Harrison - Beautiful Girl: from the 33 1/3 album. This one is about Olivia, and since I like her more than Pattie, this one trumps Something.

Extremes Suck

A few short months ago I was complaining about it being too cold. Today it was 92 degrees, the exact opposite of too cold.

BLECH!

Do we never get a happy medium anymore?

What happened to spring?

Why does it always go from too hot to too cold?

I wouldn't be bitchin and moaning so much if we had central air, but when you live in a house that's older than dirt, it is pretty damn hard to have stuff like that.

So in all extremes of temperature, I get to be miserable. I haven't decided which extreme I hate the most, but I'm pretty darn sure that too cold is probably it, because that's usually accompanied by, "can't get to work."

But on a happy note, ITS A THREE DAY WEEKEND!!!!!! All I have to do is survive tomorrow!

Hump Day!

I'm in serious need of some hump day happiness. The week has not started out good, and so far there's no end in sight to all the annoyances that came with Sunday's death of the Corsica.

Can I just say, I hate grocery shopping?

So to remind myself that things aren't all that bad.. OK, they are, oil is spilling into the gulf and NO ONE SEEMS TO WANT TO TAKE CHARGE! (I mean shouldn't someone be opening a can of whoopass on BP?) Well...now that I've run on and on, what I wanted to say was...its time the Hump Day Hunks made a reappearance

Let's have a little hump day hunk picspam

First is Mr. David Tennant


Next is Nathan Fillion



And lastly, DCI Gene Hunt...erm Philip Glenister w/some of his Ashes To Ashes castmembers

Why I Never Really Gamble

I won $50 worth of scratch and win tickets on the radio last week. I've done this two other times and its just barely worth going to pick them up.

So I bring my tickets home and start scratching.

There are 25 tickets.

You would think with that many I'd have a few winners.

HA!

I had 4 tickets that paid.

My total: $28.00

Well at least its paying for a tank of gasoline, right?

The Storm Cloud Hovers Over Me Again

In case you don't follow me on Facebook, my dad's car died yesterday. He thought it had a bad axel only to find out the frame/unibody is shot and its undrivable.

ARGH!

Just when I spend my last two cents to get a new car for me, and trade in the Beretta that may have had issues, but was still running for local stuff, his car dies.

Oh and this morning, I grabbed the wrong set of keys and had to run back home so that I could get into the damn office.

Isn't that fan-freaking-tastic?

If there is such thing as reincarnation, I'm pretty sure I was something evil and nasty and so were my mom and dad.

I did win lottery tickets on Friday. Maybe I'll win some money...even $20.00 would be appreciated right now.

I Made Omelettes

I'm so proud of myself. I managed to feed everyone breakfast this morning and everyone is still alive!

Yesterday I went to Shop and Save and they had eggs for 99 cents and chipped ham for $1.99 a pound as well as several kinds of cheese for $2.99 a pound. So today I made everyone but mom (who wanted to make her own) ham and cheese omelettes.

I'm quite that I'm getting the really thin omelettes down. That means I can probably make a crepe. I've been a bit afraid of trying the super thin pancakes. I just wish I knew how the restaurants can get them to look like burritos. I'm just not that good at rolling or folding my eggs.

So if any of you cooks out there have any tips on how to get the omelette to do that nice burrito wrap, I would love to hear how you do it.

How Crazy Is This

I just spend $9.50 to relive part of my baby years.

On what you may ask.

I bid on a lot of Little Golden Books on Ebay. Two of the 6 were books I absolutely loved, Baby's Birthday and We Like Kindergarten.

My copy of Baby's Birthday was really beat up. I loved it to death. The lot is worth that amount just for the one book. To have the other again makes it doubly special.

I'm so excited about finding these books again, even though I don't have children and probably never will.

These books are just such a special part of my childhood that I had to try to replace them.

Do You Know What I Hate More Than Anything?

I hate people that continuously talk about weight loss and working out. I know people need a support chain when it comes to losing weight. I know I do, but listening to people talk about exercising annoys the hell out of me.

I generally think its because I find exercise to be one of the most boring topics out there. I go to the gym, perhaps not as regularly as I ought to, but really its damn boring. There's nothing exciting about it. The whole exercise thing bores me, and talking about it, is a total conversation killer in my book. What the hell is there to talk about anyway, when it comes to exercise. "OMG! I felt the burn!" Conversation over.

I tend to think that people that casually drop the "I worked out," into all their conversations need to be hit with sticks.

I always want to tell those people that I feel sorry for them or ask what it was they worked out. Where did the term actually come from, because it sounds stupid too.

"I worked out."

Eh.

I guess it sounds "cool" to say it that way than the basic, "I exercised" or something similar.

Either way, I do not care.

I'm thrilled that you are fit and active! Have a cookie, now shut up about it!

Oh and do you want to know what I hate more than people that talk about weight loss related things? Blood work. Yuck.

Top Five On Friday

Top 5 songs that suit the mood you are in right now

1. The Moody Blues - Nervous (I'm going to the girly doctor at 3 o'clock and that always makes me nervous)

2. The Beatles - Drive My Car: No you may not. Francesca is my ride and I'll be driving my car, but you can come for a ride with me. (No smoking in Francesca though)

3. Mika - We Are Golden (aside from going to the doctor today, yay weekend!)

4. The Beatles - Money (I won lottery tickets on the radio today..hopefully I'll win some)

5. Oingo Boingo - Out Of Control (Cos I am!)

Funny Finale

Do any of you watch The Middle on ABC? If you don't, you really should. The show is so damn real its ridiculous. Last night's season finale had Betty White guest starring as a librarian out to make Brick's (the youngest son's) life unbearable. That combined with Sue trying to get involved in something without failing and Axel being ...well Axel, the show was hilarious from start to finish.

The best thing about this series is that it is a perfect snapshot of lower middle class America, where people are going from paycheck to paycheck to make ends meet, and often failing.

I'm thrilled that its managed to make it to a second season, because the whole cast is funny and the show doesn't go into that sickeningly sweet realm that the Disney family shows often go down. (Though I do love Good Luck Charlie)

Its really nice that there are some family shows on the major networks again, because I'm sick of all the shows being about how one character is trying to get laid.

So if you haven't watched this show yet, catch some of the reruns or go to the network's official site. I think you'll get a few laughs. Plus OMG Betty White! She's freaking awesome!

2 Million An Episode? WTF!!

It is reported that Charlie Sheen will be staying on with Two and a Half Men and he will be bringing home more than just the bacon. The not so nice Sheen will be making a cool 2 million an episode for being himself on the hit sitcom.

2 freaking million dollars!

A full season is usually around 24 episodes.

To make matters worse, CBS has sent some really good shows to the cutting block; Ghost Whisperer, The New Adventures Of Old Christine and Gary Unmarried. Perhaps they needed to do this so they can pay Sheen his ridiculous salary.

Which makes me feel like Dagwood in this particular strip.

Tuesday Tunes: Week 133

Let's do something fun.

Take the name of your favorite artist and tell us a bit of yourself using the first letters of the artists/bands name.

Example which is mine, since I am the Meme Mistress there

Elvis Costello rocks my world
Loves her new Ford Focus
Valentine's Day is my least favorite holiday.
I hate politcs and I hate listening to election BS
Sugar Plum Buttonhead is our newest feline friend.

Conan O'Brien annoys the hell out of me, and I'm sick of hearing about him.
Out Of My Mind is one of my favorite songs from Duran Duran's horrible Medazzaland CD
Sugarland is one of my favorite country bands
The Big Bang Theory is my favorite Monday night comedy
Erasure's music makes me happy.
Loves to read romance novels
Likes to take road trips when I have money for gas
Ohio is one of the states I like to visit when I can.

This Makes No Sense

When I was filling out the paperwork for my car the other day they told me that because I live in PA there wouldn't be a penalty if I paid off my loan early. I asked this because I like to pay more on my debt whenever I have the money. It makes sense.

What doesn't make sense is that any financial institution would penalize you for paying off your debt in a shorter term than originally stated.

WTF is up with that?

That's kind of wrong.

In a day and age when more people are defaulting on loans everyone should be happy to get things paid off.

Penalties for paying off a loan early.

That's just nuts!

Bernie The Beretta: A Eulogy

I wanted to say a few things about Bernie, because everyone who visits only heard me gripe about her for the last 2 or 3 years.

Bernie came to me at a bad time. My Grand Am had just breathed its last and I was unemployed. Bernie was all I could afford and I only paid $1500 for her. I've had her for just a little over 6 years. Here's the post introducing her to the world.

She came to me with 65,000 miles on her and she leaves me with 93,331. She wasn't a bad car so much as she was a car that should have had more car before I got her. She was literally dry rotting.

I always joked that she would be running and it would just be the seat the steering column and a dune buggy-like frame. Well, she left me, still running. So for that I'm thankful. I'd like to know that she wasn't completely a goner when I traded her.

She served me well in 6 years. Though I didn't let her go much farther than Pittsburgh.

May she rest in peace in the auto graveyard, or may she find someone that can piece her back together again so that she may find a new home.

I did love you Bernie. You were a good ride. Farewell.

Out With The Old, In With The New

Bernie the Beretta is no longer mine. I shed a few tears as I drove her home one last time. I may have bitched about her. I may have worried about her, but she was good to me for nearly 6 years. I am glad I don't have to see her junked, if that's to be her fate. I may not miss her, but I did love her.

Parting really is such sweet sorrow.

That said, meet Francesca The Ford. A lovely 2006 Ford Focus that has been in my possession for about an hour. I can't wait to be able to live my life with a more reliable car.

She's a very light turquoise and she runs beautifully.

Time to do the happy dance!

The Debt Monkey Returns

Bernie the Beretta has decided to play with my head again. 4 times this morning she wouldn't stay running. She's start and then just stop. I had to get my father to take me to work and then I called Enterprise so that I'd have a car for the weekend.

Bye Bye $128.00.

Oye.

The car then proceeded to start and run. No one has moved it though, so I don't know how long it will run, but its not pulling the start/stop BS it was at 7:45 this morning.

Stupid f-cking car.

I'm going to Davies Ford tomorrow and preparing to give myself a big whopping pile o' debt in the form of a used car. I've been told there are several around 7-9 thousand at the dealership and I'd rather buy from a reliable dealer than a used car shop, as my car may have a warranty worth having.

Wish me luck. I'm very nervous about this, but I know its time for Bernie to go.

Top 5 On Friday

Top 5 theme songs from movies or tv


You guys know the drill. Play along in the comments or in your journal. This meme is created for my site Music Memoirs. Feel free to go there and check out my other weekly memes and play along.

1. The Friendly Indians - I Know, You Know (Theme From Psych)



This is the best theme song EVER in my book.

2. The Monkees - The Monkees Theme



Did you think "I" would not pick this one?

3. The Barenaked Ladies - Big Bang Theory Theme



Only a band like the Barenaked Ladies could come up with such a catchy song.

4. Mika - Kick Ass (We Are Young) Theme from Kick Ass



I love Mika and damn if this song doesn't stick in my head all the damn time.

5. Doctor Who Theme (All of them...except the current one)



Cos Who kicks ass!

The Continuing Saga Of The Car

In yet another attempt by Bernie The Beretta to take a few years off my life, my car's engine light decided to come on just as I was leaving work yesterday, extinguishing my plans of going to the gym.

See! Its my car that's making me fat!

Then it stalled!

I managed to make it home and my dad got it to a friend's garage, where we were told two things.

1. My battery was shot to hell.

2. I have a leak in my exhaust! AGAIN!

My nephew came and took my dad to get a battery. Yay! However this morning, just as I was getting to work, there's that happy Engine light again.

Right now, even if I could be approved for a loan, I wouldn't go for one, as I don't feel my finances will remain stable. I know my requirements for the new or new to me car are pretty simple. I need a 4 door vehicle. It needs to be an automatic. It should also have fairly low mileage. I've not owned a car that wasn't at 80,000 miles when it came into my life. I need more reassurance that the car has staying power, especially as so many crap out and die at 100,000.

I need to win the lottery, damn it!

The Basement Of Doom

Its amazing what gets stashed in basements! I've been working at getting ours a little bit more situated in the last month. Its the kind of project you have to work at a little at a time.

Last night I unearthed 2 boxes of books.

I hate when that happens. I can't get rid of books until I know they've been read. Just what I needed to do, add 20 more books to my "to be read" pile.

I did find some one of my childhood favorites. A little book about a family going on a picnic. It was one of those books I read over and over again as a child, much like The Little Golden Book: A Bunny Book. Oh how I loved that one. (And also anything by Richard Scarry)

The books I found couldn't be short little Harlequin Romances that I could breeze through either. Nope this are some really thick historical romances.

I guess I'll be doing a lot of reading in the next few months. Here's hoping that when I go back down to clean some more I don't find any more books!

I Hate Elections

Elections suck, because for 6 months prior to anything happening you have to look and listen to stupid ads for the candidates that I have no desire to vote for.

This time around, PA is voting for a new governor and one of the Allegheny County Bigwigs wants the seat. I wouldn't vote for Dan Onorano or however the hell you spell his last name if hell froze over and Satan came to the 'Roi to party with us all.

Why?

The man's platform is he's created jobs for Pittsburgh and he hasn't raised property taxes. He's also caused the slaughter of hundreds of geese. Yes, people I'm a crazy animal lady, and I don't go for animal killing. Oh and he may not have raised property taxes but he's created enough taxes that everyone visiting Allegheny County will have to pay. Thank you, but no.

Also there's Tim Burns...have I mentioned he believes in god, guns are right and abortions are bad? Yeah...no to you too.

Lastly there's are old buddy Arlen Specter. I don't even know what to think about this Repulican/Democrat who has been in office since Jesus Christ was still around.

With all the lousy choices we have in PA this year it makes me wonder how I can choose the lesser of the evils, because everyone looks pretty damn evil.

Oh and I'm really sick of their damn commercials, which are all vote for me cos the other guy sucks ads.

GRRR.

Missing Mondays

What am I missing this week? I'm missing a time long long ago when reality tv did not exist. Back in the day when there were no shows like Survivor, The Bachelor or American Idol.

These shows need to go.

All of them.

Sorry, Bilbo, Dancing With The Stars needs to go too. Had they not put Kate Gosselin on this season, I might have let them pass.

Also the shows like Dancing and Idol...why can't they be weekend shows. People do watch the telly on the weekends!

I'm so sick of the networks taking the cheap way out. That goes for BBC America too, as they'd rather play all the reality based shows from across the pond then anything that might be entertaining....besides...Doctor Who.

I mean, c'mon, they are just airing Series 2 of Ashes To Ashes...when Series 3 is half over! Oh and word to SyFy and BBC America; Sarah Jane Adventures! We want them!

There is entertaining telly out there, but geeze, why does it have to be so hard to find?

One Of The Mysteries Of The Universe

Why is it that finding a reasonably priced bookshelf is so damn impossible. If you want one that is cheap it means one thing: Assembly.

I'm not all that good with instructions and or nails, hammers or screwdrivers. I'm not a mechanical girl. I suck at that stuff.

So I go to Value City, because that's where I got the couch and chair but those are way too expensive and would require them to be delivered and that's a bit complicated in my household.

This presents a problem, because I need storage for my books. The first bookshelf I bought when I was in college is not doing to well and I really don't want my house filled with Itso cubes from Target.

There has to be something I can use that looks decent and will get the books put away. I realize I could stop buying books, but that isn't going to happen. Just like I'm not likely going to stop buying music, so I need to find a happy medium here.

Walmart has some easily assembled shelves, but they really aren't good for books. They are more for modern looking knickknacks.

So basically I'm at square one here. Any suggestions?

I Want To Be Lazy Damn It!!

I started out my Saturday doing laundry, which is my least favorite chore. If I ever get rich, I'm definitely making sure there's someone to do the laundry. I'll cook and do other cleaning but someone better do my damn laundry.

I dropped off a bazillion bags at Goodwill only coming out with a small bag of...erm books for myself.

Went to Peebles and got my brother's wife a Mother's Day present and her b-day present, since he will be home tomorrow. Much easier to sent the gifts with him then mail them.

Took the bi-weekly trip to Walmart. Walmart on the day before Mother's Day is a bit INSANE!

Headed off to Lowe's to look for flowers for the cemeteries. Found abso-freaking-lutely nothing, but did get a new toilet seat. Woo hoo!

Then went to McShane's where I found flowers! Woo hoo!

I'm now in the process of cleaning in the kitchen, but I needed a break, from the insanity that my weekends always become.

Have I mentioned I just want to curl up with a book, or watch Doctor Who?

Top 5 On Friday

Top 5 songs from Disney Films


You guys know the drill. Play along in the comments or in your journal. This meme is created for my site Music Memoirs. Feel free to go there and check out my other weekly memes and play along.

1. The Siamese Cat Song: Most awesome song from an older Disney film, Lady And The Tramp



2. One Jump Ahead: From Aladdin



3. Making Christmas: Danny Elfman and Greg Proops! It doesn't get much better than this! Plus I love Nightmare Before Christmas



4. Can You Feel The Love Tonight: The Lion King was one of my favorite Disney films. Oh and I can't help but share, Michael Crawford's version from his Disney album.



5. You'll Be In My Heart: Ok, I'm a sucker for Phil Collins and I love this song. Phil Collins is a great songwriter.

All Is Well

Dad is home and not feeling much pain. In fact he's already back to his stubborn, slightly crotchety self, that we all know and love.

We joked today, when he wouldn't use the walker that was provided that with grandma, we always said, Vanity, thy name is Emma, because gram was a beautiful lady until the end and she knew it. No one ever would have guessed her age.

With my father it is Pride thy name is Andrew. He refuses to use the walker and half the time he neglects to take his cane, aka "STICK."

I'm just glad that this surgery is over. Not without drama, but its over. Oh and not to worry, none of the drama happened at the hospital, just a few mishaps at home.

I will be so glad when the foley is out of him tomorrow and life can return to a more normal pace.

I just wish I could have taken a picture of my dad's pouting sleeping face in the post op room. It was hilarious.

Backed Up

I have about 5 CDs that I'd like to review, but I just can't seem to get around to writing them. Thankfully these are the ones I do for free, but I hate to have requested the music and not do the write up.

I did manage to get 3 reviews done last week. I'm going to try to do that this week, starting tonight and hopefully one on Friday and another over the weekend. The thing is, these reviews really take a lot of time. That's a given.

You have to listen to the album more than once to make a good judgment call on an artists work.

The first of the reviews I'm going to be working on is a jazz/pop duo called Beautifully Mad. I did get to listen to the CD a bit last night and I really liked what I heard.

Then I have 2 albums by The New Fidelity, which I already know are awesome. Then Mark Radcliffe, another artist I highlighted in my Artists To Watch column on Mossip. After that there are 2 more CDs I need to listen to.

This is why I don't get to listen to the music I usually love anymore. However I really do love the stuff I've been hearing lately, especially the operatic singer I mentioned and Isaboe.

I just wish I had more time to listen and write, especially since I have my Chicklit book blog that I try to update on a consistent basis and Wenches.

So much to do and so little time to do it.

Oh and we still don't know when dad's surgery is tomorrow. Grrr

A Laughable Workout

I bought a copy of All You Magazine the other day, for the day of Dad's surgery so I'm not bored out of my mind, but as usual I leafed through it ahead of time.

There was an article on walking to lose weight, so I checked that out. I wanted to see if they were going to tell me I was walking wrong or something equally ridiculous. I was right.

Some fitness trainer has come up with several moves to do on your 30 minute workout so that you'll burn 220 calories in a half hour, you know, besides...walking like a normal human being.

1. Carioca: Turning sideways with your left side facing the way you are headed you bend at the knees and kinda do a cross step for 30 seconds and then switch sides. Uh, you're supposed to do this IN PUBLIC!!!!

2. Lateral Shuffle: You don't even want to know.

3. Skipping: Pretty self explanatory, righ?

4. Lateral skipping: ARGH!

If I'm going to get out and walk, its going to be in a public place, there's no walking path in my back yard where I can do this without being seen (and pointed and laughed at). I really think fitness instructors should come up with programs that make sense, and seriously skipping sideways down Meadow Aven, doesn't make much sense, unless I want to end up on the 2nd floor of the hospital in a jacket that makes me hug myself ALL THE DAMN TIME!

Missing Mondays

Every week I talk about something in my life that I miss. Right now I'm missing flower shows, either at Phipps Conservatory in Pittsburgh or Longwood Gardens in Kennett Square.

I have a love of flowers that I got from my mother. When I was young, I always wanted to rush through these places. I'm not sure why. They were always beautiful, especially Longwood. I do remember always loving The Chime Tower there, and I still do.

There's something very magical about these places. I think its because the flowers and displays are just so beautiful that you get transported into another world. Phipps has been a favorite place until the fancy shows they've done, caused the prices to rise, and with more notable artists exhibiting their glass in with the flowers like The Longfellows that were displayed their last year.

I can't believe I haven't been to Phipps since last July. I'm making a mental note to go there the next time I rent a car, which will likely be in July. It just seems a shame that I'm missing out on such beauty because my car freaking SUCKS!

But I will get there damn it! I will. I will not miss both of these places much longer!

Operatic Music?

I'm doing a review of a lovely artist on Mossip. Her name is Elizabeth Tryon. Her music shifts from pop vocal (Sarah Brightman, Idina Menzel, Emmy Russom) to more operatic sounding numbers in the course of the 13 songs on her debut album, From Elizabeth.

Now most of you that know me, know I'm not really into classical music. I like my share of songs from musical theater, but I'm not an opera buff by any means. However, when you listen to this lady sing, it doesn't really matter.

Elizabeth has a voice that defies description.

Check out her music her website, its definitely worth listening to. Check out my review here.

Surgery Scheduled For Thursday

My dad's surgery is scheduled for Thursday. I'm nervous, even though this is outpatient surgery. It is likely that he'll have to stay overnight.

My brain is full of thinky thoughts.

I fucking hate thinky thoughts.

I realize that he's 84 and I've got to reconcile myself to the knowledge that things like this are going to happen and that someday I'm not going to have him or mom, but damn it, I'm not ready to deal with that, and I hate when things happen that make me think that way.

I don't know how I'd cope. I don't know how mom would cope or how I'd take care of her.

See, this is why I hate thinky thoughts. My mind always goes straight for the worst case scenario, and this is freaking outpatient surgery to remove bladder stones and to correct an enlarged prostate.

Oh and guess who gets to be the only family member to sit at the hospital while all of this is going on?

Yeah, ME!

Suckery!

Fear and Suckery!