I think all this time sitting by myself has been a detriment to my mind. If that makes sense. Being alone with ones thoughts is not always a good thing, especially when one is a compulsive worrier like I am.
I need to step away from the computer more, I think, because when I'm online I want to look up stuff about floaters or bug the people I know that have had them, because I'm worried.
I've never really had anything wrong with me before. I'm nearsighted with astigmatism, yes, but other than that and having a UTI once a few summers ago, I've had nothing wrong with me.
To discover these little floating dots that don't go away is hard to deal with. I don't want to drive my car because I get preoccupied with them once I see them. Plus sometimes I see one, other times I think I see more, especially if I look up into any light or go into a white room. Its totally maddening.
I need to relax and be able to stop thinking about these things, but right now I can't seem to do it. I just want to sit alone in the dark. I don't even want to read right now, and that hurts me, because I love books.
I want to talk to people, but these damn floaters are the only thing on my mind so I'm sure I'd be bad conversation to.
The 21st Century Golem
11 hours ago
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