Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Not Doing Well

I have to say that losing Mucker has taken its toll on me. I'm deeply worried about my other kitties, but I am relieved that one kitty out of the litter has tested negative for Feline Leukemia.

So there is hope.

I'm so exhausted and so incredibly sad.

See, I am the epitome of the crazy cat lady.

I have a baker's dozen.

I feed them NutriSource Cat food that costs $30 for a 16 lb bag. (Though I think I'm going to give the 4Health brand from Tractor Supply a try)

I highly recommend the Nutrisource. It is one of the best foods for your pet that money can buy, and it doesn't have the nasty stuff that big named pet foods that you get at the grocery store have. (and that includes IAMS and Hills Brand foods)

I'm just so heartbroken right now.

I take better care of my animals than I do myself. They get to the Vet more than I get to the doctor.

It just doesn't seem fair that I lost 2 of my babies and my Bootsie this summer.

I feel horrible.

I keep thinking I could have done more...I should have been a better kitty mama. I feel like I failed my children.


Diane said...

You absolutely did not fail them, Andrea! Whenever this happens to me, I always second guess myself and that's probably normal. I lost my beloved Peyton at 1 year old to FIP and I keep asking myself if I could have found it earlier but it was fatal no matter what I did. Don't beat yourself up - it's the grief that's doing this to you. Please know many of us out here are thinking of you and sending hugs your way.