I really want to hibernate this winter away.
I want to forget everything.
I know there are people going through the same thing I am and my heart breaks for them too.
In my 40 years of life, I think there were only a few weeks where I didn't see my father and mother. When they were in the hospital, I was there. I sat with him in the ER all but 2 times. I jeopardized my job to be with him.
And I would do it again if I had him.
My parents are my life.
They are all I have.
I was doing good the past few days, when it comes to crying. I thought I might be done, but I wasn't. I had a mini breakdown tonight. I just miss him so badly, and I hate life without him. It's so quiet and empty.
I hate my house because I keep looking for him and he's not here.
I want to sleep away this nasty depressing winter and wake in the spring when it is warm.
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