Thursday, December 04, 2014

What Happened To Mourning?

This world moves by at such a crazy pace that people seem to think you should finish grieving in a few short weeks.

My dad died on Nov 16th and that wound is still fresh.

If I could wear black everyday, I would.

What I don't understand are the people that say, "Well, you're moving on with your life now, right?"



In fact, right now, my life feels like it is at a total stand still. I don't know what to do with myself.  I spent the last 6 years taking care of my dad, though his health wasn't always bad in that time period. I went to the doctor with him, I stayed at the hospital with him, I knew what was going on.

That's gone, and I feel like I'm floating off to sea. I'm adrift, with no purpose at all.

The worst part is that all the little things that annoyed the hell out of me before, are what I miss the most right now.

My life is empty and its going to take more than a few weeks to make the pain go away. Anyone that thinks it should just disappear, has obviously never loved someone.


eViL pOp TaRt said...

People who say that you should more along are totally insensitive clods. I'm sorry you have to get that foolishness,

Mike said...

Time to dive into your books while sitting in your Dads chair. He'll be reading along with you.

allenwoodhaven said...

Grief has to find it's own way. I lost my parents many years ago and still miss them. You can find a new normal, and will, but it takes more time than some think it should, but they change their tune when it effects them personally. My advice, such as it is, is to remember him by sharing memories of him with everyone possible. You have my sympathy for your loss.