Monday, November 10, 2014

I'm AWOL

I think if it weren't for Facebook and its mindless games, that I'd totally leave the internet. I have nothing to blog about anymore.

There is no happy in my life and there can't be.

There is nothing worse than watching someone you love slowly fade away.

It is horrible and it totally makes me question my belief in god.

Why?

Because I was taught there's a merciful God out there, but if God had any mercy, this wouldn't be happening to my father right now.

I don't know what to think or feel right now.

I only know that I hope when my own time comes that it is swift and it isn't this slow progression that saps the person you love from you day by day, making you suffer the loss long before it happens.

I miss my daddy.

God is not merciful. God is cruel and heartless.

1 comments:

Nikki-ann said...

*Hugs*

There's nothing I can say to make you feel any better.

I lost a dear friend recently (I'd gone to nursery, primary school, high school and college with him) and it still hurts like hell. I can't imagine what it must be like to say goodbye to a parent.

Take care of yourself. *Hugs*.