It's All Too Much

As I've mentioned before, Dad is home from the hospital but on hospice care. That in itself is depressing. Watching his health decline is more so.

He started out doing pretty well.

I can hear the change in his breathing more so now than ever and it is killing me.

We aren't telling him the nurses coming are hospice, because he knows what that is, and if he knew that, he'd give up fighting and he still has fight in him.

It is just damn depressing.

Everything is depressing and I feel beyond powerless.

I've got our tiny 4 ft tree up, so that he can enjoy the pretty lights (assuming our cats don't kill it) I want him to enjoy the holiday as much as he can.

~sigh~